Bounce

Dear ______,

If you’re reading this it means I actually worked up the courage to post it, so good for me. You don’t know me very well, but if you get me started I have a tendency to go on and on about how unfortunate life can be. But this, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write.

    There is no easy way to say this, but I'm ok, and I glad you're happy. I am sorry for everything I've been overly stubborn for as long as I can remember. The truth is that I didn’t know how to not be with you right then, and that scared the shit out of me. Because I had this feeling we would somehow get lost out there, not just as a couple but friends. It’s a big, bad world full of twists and turns, and people have a way of blinking and missing the moment—the moment that could’ve changed everything. I for one thought that I was going to miss my moment not realizing that a moment is just that—a moment. 

                                              —Always there for you

                                                                                  Terrell Yusef Fernandez

Friends, Americans, countrymen, lend me your ears....

Because I did it for once in my life I took an actual risk and it didn't kill me, don't get me wrong I was torn up, haven't felt that way in a very long time but it was oddly comforting. I was a little worried that I didn't have the emotional capacity to feel things that strongly anymore but thankfully I was wrong. So I'll leave you with some word vomit to close up shop.

1. If I got the girl, lost the girl, attempted to get the girl back and failed (only resulting in pushing her away),you can in the VERY least try your luck, It could suck or it could not but you owe it to yourself to try.
2. "The best way to get over someone is to get under someone else." That quote is by far one the most absurd mound of horse crap I've ever had the displeasure of being told. Don't you dare besmirch the relationship that you at some point were all for, just because you were/are upset about the whole thing. Take your time cherish the fun you did have even if romance was just really beginning. I'll write a post about how I feel that whole subject soon.
3. I ALWAYS get what I want in every aspect of life and the fact is I wanted her happy. I value her happiness over everything and I'm glad she's on track to being/staying happy.