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For those who are brave enough to tread the dark waters of the deep end lets go to work.
So let me get a disclaimer out of the way on this so I don't catch any heat because I do like my ravings to go off without a hitch. I am by no means, I repeat no means confessing my love or interest in any specific female in this part of this entry. I am however simply stating the love I have for all my ladies and expressing how much I truly believe they are amazing. With that said let me begin...Ladies I will say again If I have ever complimented you please don't take it as a guy simply trying to get something out of you, I really do think what I say so if I say "you're gorgeous" damn it bitch you are pretty take the damn compliment. You should know by now that I don't sugar coat anything so come on lets be real, and if your one my close girlfriends weather you think about it or not there is something about you that I truly and deeply admire about you, it may be your work ethic, your view on the world, your personality, or etc. there is something about you I truly cherish and enjoy. So in all seriousness ladies I want you happy! I don't want any "eh" or "ok" when it comes to anything in life. Your man fucking up? leave his ass do better and don't front because you ladies know damn well you can be with anyone you want to and you deserve the absolute best so go get it. Job not going where you want it to? Look for a new one go back to school do something and if you need help I'll do anything I can for you trust me, if I have to forgo eating for a weeks to see you smile you damn right i'd do it no questions asked. I may have been burned countless time by friends and love interests alike but it'll never keep my from doing what I can as a friend (now a potential love interest ladies, I'm sorry to say I'm a little more trouble than it's worth believe me ;) ) back to the subject at hand please please ladies do not under sell yourselves, each of you are amazing women in your own ways and don't let any fucknut tell you or make you feel any different.
Hold on fellas I don't mean to make you guys feel left out but to be honest most of you mother fuckers got some big ass egos on you and don't need any help but you guys know I feel the same for you no matter whats going on if you have my back I'll gladly lay my life on the line for you and I mean that.
My name is Terrell Fernandez and I suffer from low self esteem, delusions of grandeur, paranoia and I am prone to self sabotage due to my fear of the unknown, but even with that I'm ok. I'm not out to break any hearts I'm not out to fuck you and leave, I'm here to do the same thing we all are figure shit out. I'm a big fucking scaredy cat when it comes to almost anything, women, life, hell even what I'm supposed to wear to tomorrow worries me. Simply because I have no clue whats going on I want to make my family proud, my friends happy, and my enemies envious. Which is alot to do when simply can't let things go and when I say I can't let things go I mean it everything weighs heavy on my mind and I feel its the only way I can protect myself. I've almost been dead too many times to take things lightly to let myself fall again I've got too many people to take care of and I refuse to let another of my friends hurt themselves over some bitch who didn't want them. So excuse my if I seem distant uninterested hesitant secretive private or anything like that it's just how I operate. I can't begin to explain how my mind works mostly because I don't really understand whats going on, but it's a work in progress ladies and gents if you wish to bare with me I thank you I truly do but if not I don't blame you but you can kick rocks bro with no shoes on.
So let me get a disclaimer out of the way on this so I don't catch any heat because I do like my ravings to go off without a hitch. I am by no means, I repeat no means confessing my love or interest in any specific female in this part of this entry. I am however simply stating the love I have for all my ladies and expressing how much I truly believe they are amazing. With that said let me begin...Ladies I will say again If I have ever complimented you please don't take it as a guy simply trying to get something out of you, I really do think what I say so if I say "you're gorgeous" damn it bitch you are pretty take the damn compliment. You should know by now that I don't sugar coat anything so come on lets be real, and if your one my close girlfriends weather you think about it or not there is something about you that I truly and deeply admire about you, it may be your work ethic, your view on the world, your personality, or etc. there is something about you I truly cherish and enjoy. So in all seriousness ladies I want you happy! I don't want any "eh" or "ok" when it comes to anything in life. Your man fucking up? leave his ass do better and don't front because you ladies know damn well you can be with anyone you want to and you deserve the absolute best so go get it. Job not going where you want it to? Look for a new one go back to school do something and if you need help I'll do anything I can for you trust me, if I have to forgo eating for a weeks to see you smile you damn right i'd do it no questions asked. I may have been burned countless time by friends and love interests alike but it'll never keep my from doing what I can as a friend (now a potential love interest ladies, I'm sorry to say I'm a little more trouble than it's worth believe me ;) ) back to the subject at hand please please ladies do not under sell yourselves, each of you are amazing women in your own ways and don't let any fucknut tell you or make you feel any different.
Hold on fellas I don't mean to make you guys feel left out but to be honest most of you mother fuckers got some big ass egos on you and don't need any help but you guys know I feel the same for you no matter whats going on if you have my back I'll gladly lay my life on the line for you and I mean that.
My name is Terrell Fernandez and I suffer from low self esteem, delusions of grandeur, paranoia and I am prone to self sabotage due to my fear of the unknown, but even with that I'm ok. I'm not out to break any hearts I'm not out to fuck you and leave, I'm here to do the same thing we all are figure shit out. I'm a big fucking scaredy cat when it comes to almost anything, women, life, hell even what I'm supposed to wear to tomorrow worries me. Simply because I have no clue whats going on I want to make my family proud, my friends happy, and my enemies envious. Which is alot to do when simply can't let things go and when I say I can't let things go I mean it everything weighs heavy on my mind and I feel its the only way I can protect myself. I've almost been dead too many times to take things lightly to let myself fall again I've got too many people to take care of and I refuse to let another of my friends hurt themselves over some bitch who didn't want them. So excuse my if I seem distant uninterested hesitant secretive private or anything like that it's just how I operate. I can't begin to explain how my mind works mostly because I don't really understand whats going on, but it's a work in progress ladies and gents if you wish to bare with me I thank you I truly do but if not I don't blame you but you can kick rocks bro with no shoes on.
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